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Feb 27, 2011

too little too bam-bam

hOHoHo....selongkar punya sel0ngkar... finally i found sum of my old pic... hehehe baby time pic...hohohoho
wen i was small... i was very2 chubby and fatty baby..... hehehhee mana tak nye... my mom told me tat evryday i jst ate mashed potato yg kepci toh... pastu minum susu nespray.... lagi my mom story, mana pregnant kan i, dia suke sgt makn fast food... burgers, chics, fries, pizzas.... waahhhalaweiiii... ptt la i lahir tembam sgt2... u knw brapa kg??? hehehe 4.1kg u ollss!!! so havvy my mom said...wen ever she wants to milk me, she has to lay down.. hahhahaa but im chubby in the healty way... wen i was small i think i love to eat apple n buah kurma tu.... my mom ckp time puasa sebok nk jugak..hehehhee

huhuhu wen i flash back during my kiddo time.. i jst wish if i cud be kid again... no need to think abt probs... no need to go to work.. no need go to school.. n no need to be broken heart akibat dari putus cinta... haihhhh i wish i cud be kid/baby again...i wish i wish n i wish!huhuhuhu

ni ada 2pcs pic yg i jmpa..hehehhe


** tis pic taken at my kampung kat kB, at my grandmama house.. i think time ni baru brapa bulan je tp dah tembam kan... heheheh yg besh...mate i sepet u! hahahahaha


** tis pic lak taken at national zoo...i was at age 6 or 7 ase nye kot..... in this pic me and my brother, nazli..with my aunts... heheh me and my brother is kinda our parents prince n princess la time ni sbb kitorg dua bradik je... only after 6years later baru i dpt adik, nama dia nina...


thinking back at tat time we were soooo happy... treated like a prince n princess... i want to be 6 again! huhuhuhu skrg im 23yo.....huhuhu makin meningkat dewasa .... ermm pape pn i love my fam !

signing off
qu_nazryn

u just annoyed me.

Have u ever feel annoying wit sumone?? well i have... in fact tat i faced tat situation everyday... the person is not nobody... sumone tat quite close with me... back then we use to share evrything together.. but i think not now... let me give a nickname for tat person oke.. lets name it V, its easier to say..hahaha...

oke so it all begin years ago wen i first knwn V.. we were besties.. i mean we share evrything..well not all lah oso got sum secret tat no one knws kan...V is i can say good looking but naahh.. mybe cute mybe not...haha dont wanna comment abt tat... hmm...

u knw i really hates 'gedik' girls kan.. no matter which way of gediks for me..it really annoying being around tat kind of people... feels like [urghhhh wattaheck are they doing, dont they hve mirror to look for themself?] come laaa.... so paris hilton i tell u! -well if kaya or pretty like paris doesnt mind la kan but ni tak.. cam kak limah ada laahhh.. hahahahhaa....

i dont wanna be mean... so i kept quite.. i dont wanna be harsh on V coz V is my fren... but how im gonna wake V up????? to tell V tat 'u're fuckin annoys me!"

evryone has their own advantages n vise versa... but we dont do stufs like embrace ourselve by saying sumtin yg blh nampk riak... u knw wat i mean?like overproud with urself.. sumtin like tat la... haizzzzzzzzz..... there's many more out there tat prettier than u lah.... sabo jelah!

moral of the story is: lu lansing lu mati (erk ada kaitan meh?ahh wateverjelah)


signing off~
qu_nazryn

Typo error!! - adoiiii lahhh

arini ari ahad..and kat klntan ahad is a weekdays... so im working la today.... time sume org ngh tdo lagi kat umah aku dah sampai office dah... adehh pnya lah malas..huhu rase cm nak MC je..hahahhaa... tp demi keje2 yg menunggu aku kat opis aku gagahkan jugak kaki ni melangkah pergi ke ofice hehehehehee....

awl pagi aku ada recieved sms dari dealer aku nama En M**** dia nak account report, tp time tu aku x balas lagi... aku terus kan ngn keje2 aku yang lain... [dlm lebih setgh jam pastu baru aku reply]

nak tahu apa yg jadi?hehehhee [cecite cecite]
begini cite nye.........

tis morning at my office, hp ku berbunyi
[kuar lagu like a G6,msg tone aku]
En.M**** : Morning miss Naz, boleh tolong check total sales untuk bulan Feb 2011?nk forecast..thanks.
[half an hour later i replied:
Me.Myself : morning2... sure blh je.. nanti syg run report dulu k..

~ samada u olls prasaan or tidak..aku dah silap taip! typor error!damnnn...
Error: 'syg' suppose is 'sy'

OMG! typo error..ape pnya mamai la aku neh smpai leh error cmtoh...adoiii tu la pdh nye terbiase taip camtoh..iskkk seb bek dealer ak tu sporting...haahhahaha... naseb baek la dealer aku toh sporting and faham...siap bahan aku lagi...siot toll ahh..malu beb!hahahahah tp xpe..aku jadikan lesson so tat i wont do the same mistakes again...hahahahahaha

Moral of the story: open ur eyes wide and focus!


signing off
[qunazryn]

Feb 20, 2011

who are you?


i knw i cant take one more steps towards u.. coz all tat's waiting is regret... and dont u knw, im not ur ghost anymore... u lost the love i loved the most...

i learned to live half alive..
and now u want me one more time....

who do u think u are? running round leaving scars.. collectiong ur jar of hearts...and tearing love apart... u're gonna catch a cold.. from the ice inside ur soul... so dont come back for me... ..who do u think u are....??

dear it took so long just to feel alright... remember how to put back the light in my eyes... i wish i had missed the first time tat we met... coz u broke all ur promises.. and now u're back... u dont get to get me back....

Dont come back at all~!

[qu_nazryn]

Bad mood


these few days im kinda havin a bad times... often to get mad and easy to tacing wit evryone... kinda bored oso... dont knw, seems like im having a difficulties to laugh and huhahuha (sum sort of it) mybe coz there's too much to think..n too many to face... i jst hate tis life... ppl dont knw wat im goin thru all day... they jst reti nak ckp itu ini je.. without knwing how hard it is to me... ermm wat is tis all abt?? well..its abt everything i can say... from office to home till my social life.. evrything is kinda messy... im not a type of person tat taking things easily, i have my own responsibilities... and im tied up with it... evn sumtimes i felt like so hard to breath.. but wat ure all knw is telling me tis and tat... hey, u dont even knw wats going on so dont try to act like u knw evrything... theres no angel to be one... i dont need to knw any kind of small2 things... at one particular point, i feels so fed up and wanna go away frm all.... i dont knw wat has got into me.... i jst want to live normal like others.. living a simple life... im alone, but i dont wanna be in crowd..!

Feb 17, 2011

wat does LOVE mean to you?

love.is the most complicated substance ever exists in the entire whole universe.yes it is.undeniable.love makes ur head up in the space OR wayyy under the mantle of the earth.when we're in love,in cloud 9, it is indeed such a nice feeling.everything seems so right.BUT when love goes wrong, eveything goes beyond wrong.well...as a human-being,we need it.but that doesnt mean just the boyfriend-girlfriend thingy.love with your family, friends, surroundings, n utmost importantly,God.but what im gonna share today is about love that is closely related to relationship.just thinking of it...sigh...a big one..

ive been in love for quite a few times.had crushes, stumbled, fell, went tru it, and suddenly it ended.failed.love.tho it's a positive word, it can bring u to the negative zen.i hate it when that happens.i love it if a fling could last,forever.but it can never be.my mom,my aunties,my cousins repeatedly told me that look for someone who loves u more than u love him.this time around,i just...failed.cause it's uninvitable,irreversible.i fell so hard this time.never in my life i had liked a person this much.how i wish that i could turn back time n i never ever met him so that i wont fall for him n now...im kinda hurt.a bit.

a question.what would u do if u LOVE someone?i would do these:-
1.i'd be there for u WHENEVER u need me.maybe not physically but mentally YES.
2.if u're sick, i'd be worried sick just thinking that ure sick.ill try my best to comfort u d best way i can.
3.i cant go a single day without thinking of you.
4.always figuring out how to make u feel better,happier.
5.in fact, id walk thousand steps just to meet u.dont dare me,id do that.
6.i wanna see u every single day.but i know thats possible.maybe it's a feeling called MISS."i miss u"
7.i rarely say NO to u
8.i will always try to say YES all the time.
9.in my worse condition,(tired/sick/down/messed up/fucked up) id put those all away as long as i can see u.seriously.
10.i hardly get mad at u.i just cant.
11.i try to be perfect for you.maybe this is why love is insane.
12.and LOVE,change me into becoming a better person

as a conclusion, id do anything if i love you...

maaf ku tersalah sangka

Assalamualaikum...
pagi yang indah lagi nyaman...angin sepoi2 bahasa... x cerah sgt x mendung... memang sedang elok....
semalaman aku sendirian memikirkan tntang si dia... yang jaoh... kerinduan yang semakin menebal sering kali membuat aku mengalirkan air mata.... ingin sekali aku berada disamping dia... tapi apa daya aku.... hanya mampu menunggu bila tiba masa nya itu..insyaAllah...

2-3 hari ni dia agak busy dgn keje2 dia... kadang2 timbul rasa syak terhadap dia.... maklum la..cemburu, wisau tentang dia...sume ada... mana x nye..dia jela insan kesayangan ku yg aku ada oke?uhuhuhuhu..... nk dijadikan cite.. ari maulud tu.. dia bz sgt smpai balik lewat pagi... hahaha aku ape lgi..melenting la.. ckp xkan xleh sms 1 msg pn.. huhuhu tp yelah..kalo time ngah busy, kadang2 mmg hp pn kite x pandang... huhu last2 malam tu dia reply balik sms aku... actly aku belom tdo lagi..tp saje wat2 tdo and x reply sms dia.... hahhaha (rasa cam nk bls tp degil nye pasal aku xblas pn) hurmmm.... aku ni mmg degil.. tp sedegil2 aku ni...tetap kalah pd dia..haihh... aku reply jgk laa... tapi..tup2 dia lak yg senyap...adoiiiii gerammm nye... dah tdi ok dah mood..pastu dia snyap plak .... tp aku taw msti dia dah tdo...tngu aku x balas2 sms dia..tertido la toh....huhuhu skali ag aku tdo ngn ase cam geram..nk cubit2 je dia tu rasa....eeeee seb bek jao..lau dekat..mmg dah kena cubit2 ngn aku dah...iskkk....

esoknye pagi(means mlm smlm la)... sll nya aku akn wish morning tp pagi tu aku tak wish pn...tp dia tetap send sms wish aku good morning...aduhhh cair japs..adehhh... aku tak reply..tp tgh ari kit baru aku reply... hohoho.... then sehari suntuk aku tak msg dia... smlm aku balik keje lewat jgk kot... aku ada sms dia..ckp aku dah balik (mmg tiap2 ari aku bgtaw dia bila aku dahbalik) tgk dia xde reply..xpelah..mybe dia sibok wat keje... aku teruskan rutin aku cam bese..mandi, smyg masak... then...jeng jeng jeng.... lebey kurang kul 9 malam dia sms aku.... wahh berbunga jap ase hati...tah nape... ati aku gembira skali lau dpat sms or call dari dia.... senyum ku sendiri :)
dia bz..ada meeting..dpt sms aku kejap je..tp xpe.. tu pn aku dah hargai...at least dia ada msg aku kan.... wlaupn 2msg ke.. time sms tu..aku still wat2 cam dingin je reply sms dia... bukan ape..niat nye nk majuk..adehh tp cam x menjadi lak...adoiii my syg ni hati kering ke ape?huhuhu tp xpelah.... redha jew la.... huhu

pagi ni, 17.02.2011 aku login fb cam sedia kala...pepagi lagi aku dah wish dia morning... dia reply :) , then bila aku login fb, aku tgk page dia..then aku tgk page kawan dia nama Zul***** tgk ada sebut nama poji..so aku view la.. huhuuhu aku bace... kwn2 dia sume dok merungurt sebb keje banyak.... yg dpt aku copy paste...

dorg dok bising sbb keje byk..tiap2 ari balik pagi... huhuhu aku bace je la..then, bila aku cursor lagi bawah.... tgk ada sumone mention nama my incek fuzi..............


huhuhuhu tetiba rasa cam besalah sgt..uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa aku dah salah sngka kat dia... huhu maafkan by abg...by x niat pn.... baru skrg by faham yang abg sibuk tntang pilihanraya kat merlimau tu... huhuhu smpai kan hari2 balik pagi... by mintak maaf...sbb pk yg bukan2....
by taw abg seorg yang hardworking man..huhu walaupape pn... kalo blh... sekurang2 nye send 1 sms pn dah ok..ckp abg balik lewat..then xpelah..by dah taw la kalo camtu huhuhu....
sume gara2 pilihanraya tuh la...iskkk sian syg...tu blm lagi abg yang masuk bertanding.hahaha kalo abg yg bertanding..jawab nye mmg kena tngal sorg2 la by...huhauhaua tp xpe..kalo abg masuk calon....by akn undi abg... undi sms..hahahahhaa

suppose awal bulan 3 ni aku jmpa my incek fuzi tu.... insyaAllah..harap2 sempat la jmpa and cuti dia approve laa ...harap sgt..huhuhu

rasa rindu plak kat dia skg ni...rindu sgt2..... hurmmm by rindu abg.... ;(


signing off
~qunazryn~

Feb 16, 2011

Ketika hati terluka...



..ketika hatimu terluka sangat dalam, maka saat itu kau sedang belajar tentang memaafkan ....
..ketika usahamu dinilai tidak penting, maka saat itu kau sedang belajar keikhlasan ....
..bila kamu merasa sendiri dan tak ada seorang pun yang menemanimu...
...Sesungguhnya Tuhan ada disisimu....
..setiap apa yg berlaku itu..pasti ada hikmah disebalik nya...

[qunazryn]

Bait bait coretan si Hati


...yang kuinginkan hanyalah hal yang sederhana...
tangan yang siap menerima lukaku...
jari yang menghapus peluhku...
dan jiwa ynag berkata...
jangan bersedih lagi…
kau tak lagi sendiri sekarang…

.....malam datang hadirkan sepi...
sunyi sendiri disini...tanpa kau hadir disisi...
bayangmu pun tak ku raih dalam mimpi.....
aku tetap mencintainya…
meski dia tak pernah dapat ku rengkuh dalam pelukanku…
kerana memang…cinta ada dalam jiwa, bukan dalam raga....

~permulaan cinta adalah membiarkan orang yang kamu cintai menjadi dirinya sendiri,
dan tidak merubahnya sesuai dengan gambaran yang kamu inginkan.
jika tidak,kamu hanya mencintai pantulan diri sendiri yang kamu temukan di dalam dirinya.
kerana cinta ada dalam jiwa, bukan dalam raga..

[qunazryn]

Like only a man can...

I wasn't perfect
I done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn't looking for forgiveness
I wasn't laid up by my pride
Just shocked by his attention

Did someone sign me up for love?
I didn't want it
But now I can't live without it

He changed my life
He cleaned me up
He found my heart
Like only a man can
He pulls me up
When he knows I'm sad
He knows his girl
Like only a man can

He's kinda perfect
He's kinda everything I'm not
Yes, he's an guardianl
It's amazing how he's patient
Even more at times I'm not
He's my conscience

But who decided I'd be his
I want to hate them
Cause now I can't live without him

He changed my life
He cleaned me up
He found my heart
Like only a man can
He pulls me up
When he knows I'm sad
He knows his girl
Like only a man can

~qunazryn~




jangan terlalu mengharap



Lumrah sebagai seorg manusia kite sll mengharapkan sesuatu yg kadangkala kite xleh dpt or xdpt sepnuh nye... puas kita mengharap kan sumtin yg x kunjung tiba...
dlm kehidupanku... semuanya adalah harapan... berharap untuk mengubah mada depan.. berharap untuk lebih bahagia..berharap untk dikurniakan kesihatan yg baek dan juga berharap untuk bersama org yg tersayang.. dan berharap untuk tidak ditmpa malang dan sbg nya....
xsume apa ygkita nak kita akn dpt... ada kala nya kita kena berusaha lebih dari yg biasa untuk nya... jadi..bila kita dah berusaha lebih daripada biasa....and if at the end of the day, we failed... how are we suppose to accept the fate? coz we alrdy hoping to much for it....sum ppl can said they're done hoping..but the truth is as long as we're living in tis world... we will keep on hoping and aspecting for sumtin tat we want..

i didnt xpect much from anyone...but sumtimes its hurt when it has to be u tat do everything...thre's no 2 way action taken.... its all on me.... its me tat keeping the thing's straight...its me tat making things ok...and its all on me to surrender.... im not an angel tat can be perfect and understand all.... im just a human... tat sumtimes have my own desire...

I think i've done my best for the person tat i love... but last nite... i was very2 upset...! feels like im not important at all... i've been waiting for him...from P.M to A.M but not even a single sms i rcvd.... I tak berharap dia nak msg dgn i twentyforseven but at least reply me 1 sms pn dah ok.... xde la im worried or pk yang bukan2... i was so stress...and upset... tapi i tak dapat nk luahkan n ckap kat dia.... sbb i masih lagi nk jaga hati dia..... i tak nak..dia fkir i x faham dia...i cuba n akan cube untuk faham dia...tp, i terpaksa korbankan perasaan i.... btl la org kata...kadangkala..cinta ni boleh memusnahkan dri sndiri sbb kita sangup lalukan and lalui apa saja untuk org yg kita sayang tu....

But its okay lah.... i'll keep on standing no matter wat hapen... im doing this coz aku btl2 syangkan dia.... n if i cud..i want to do the best for him..even i have to sacrifice myself... coz he's the only one i have.....

to my incik fuzi, by always luv u...

~signing off~
-qunazryn-



Maulidur rasul...

Selawat ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W
Sallallahu Ala Muhammad
Sallallahu Alay Wassalam
Sallallahu Ala Muhammad
Sallallahu Alay Wassalam

Semalam bertarikhkan 15 Feb 2011 umat islam menyambut maulidur rasul buat kesekian kali nya.. hati sayu sebak bila mendengar zikir selawat dilantunkan diradio2 dan tv... makin sayu bila sendiri berzikir....Sebaik2 manusia adalah Rasulullah saw...


~ maka smlm, ramai yg join perarakan maulidur rasul..di seluruh msia... kelantan pn ada gak..melaka..n negeri2 lain..ermm nape aku sebut melaka? sebb kat melaka kan ada my incik Fuzi... hari ahad lepas dia dah bgtaw aku yang ada perarakan akn berlansung pd hari maulud nti... so aku take note la....
ermm... mmg pd hari tersebut dia terpaksa bangon awal...kul 6 dah bgn siap2... sian dia.. aku bgn awl jgk tuk kejutkan dia..tkt nti terlewat plak...
sepjg hari semalam..mmg dia agak bz la..aku pn paham...

ermm ape lagi nk tulis ek?ermm tahla... takt nie jelah...
signing off

~qunazryn~

Feb 13, 2011

musykil

segala nya amat memusykil kan bagi aku.. hampir setiap benda wat aku musykil...
prlu ke aku berperasaan camni???
kdang2 rasa cam x tenang pn ada jgk... tah lah.. sll pk nape rasa cam nie..nape sume tu camtu.. cam segala nya adalah alasan semata2..
nape aku harus rasa camni?? bukan aku x caya..cume aku takut untuk kecewa lagi...

i had enuf of suffering... been broken hearted so many times.. tis time i wanna make it succeed... i dont wanna cry for broken heart... i need sumtin tat permenent..eternaly..

i knw nothing is eternaly.. but at least..i can hold it untill i die... sumtin tat i can be happy with.. i never loved sumone like i love him... i never care sumone like i care for him... and i never trust sumone like i trusted him....

sumtimes i felt like he dont love me... im sorry honey for feeling tat way..but yeah.. sumtimes u make me feels sad... but its ok.. coz i love u damn much and i dont mind hurt..

ada 1 issue yg aku x puas hati and musykil....slh seorg kwn dia...aritu dia pegi family day with his office staffs... then ada sorg office mate dia kot.. upload pic kat fb dia... so aku view la... coz dia buat friends on friends kot..so aku boleh view pic tu... then aku add la dia.. bukan ape..saje nk tmbah kenalan..bukan ada mksd lain pn.... then harini.. aku onlinebalik... mmg pmpuan tu x approve aku... aku pn x taw nape... tp mls la nk pk sgt..sbb yelah...aku paham...fb dia..itu hak dia nk approve aku or tak... then aku tgk.. picture2 dia yang kat pd tu pn dah xde..i mean mybe dia dah pvte kan tuk frens only.... ermmm so aku ase cam musykil.... kalo nk diikutkan...dia toh bukan la pemes sgt ramai org nk add dia... so nape dia x approve?? ada pape ke yg mnyebab kan dia xnak approve??? hurmmm tah la... aku dah penat la... aku penat ngn sume pkara mcm nie...

atau....ini semua just perasaan aku..emosi aku je??? ermm xtaw nk ckp ape...
mybe aku terlalu sygkan dia...smpai aku jadi camni...
aku cume nak dia taw... yang aku sayang dia..tu je...

~ qu nazryn ~